Changes

I have always thought of myself as someone who loves change. I love rearranging my furniture, the decor in my house, and I especially love getting a new haircut. However, as I have been facing the reality that every single aspect of my life will be changing this year--from driving a minivan, to moving from Campus, to adding a new family member--I am kinda freaking out. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night worried about how Liam will cope with a new sibling. My mind tends to wander as I try to envision where I will be living later this Summer. I find myself filled with anxiety about how I will organize my new place.

I have such fond memories of living here in Aggie Village and I am sad that I have to move yet happy at the same time that I will get a fresh new start. I am worried that I am making a huge mistake to stay in Logan one more year while Bill commutes. I get so overwhelmed that the tears begin to form and I have to remind myself that there is a loving Heavenly Father that is mindful of me and that he is aware of my struggles and anxieties. I have to take a deep breath and remember that it is through prayer and the Holy Ghost that he makes his wishes known to me. I have to keep reminding myself that all these changes are a good thing and that I will be O.K. There is a higher power at work here and as much as I want to believe it is me that is control--the truth is I am really powerless and that I have to use my faith to get me through.